The first time God said to me, “Love never fails”, I slammed the Bible shut and replied, “Yes it does!” I was an extremely hurt and damaged 20 year old. He said this to me on the way to a Christian festival. While there, in the ruins of Dudley Castle, God told me to give up a past boyfriend I had had, who was still … Continue reading Love never fails
I feel like the Holy Spirit is speaking to me about “becoming less” at the moment. I don’t mean ‘positionally’, as if it’s ‘less’ being a full-time mum, than a full-time office worker. Rather I mean an attitude of the heart, whatever ‘position’ in life I function in. I think like with all personal change, this will be a process, but it began recently when … Continue reading Becoming less
God recently healed me of a deep wound in my soul. It was the wound of not being ‘heard’ by some important people in my life. The not being ‘heard’ was more than a one-off circumstance, it was a regular experience, and it caused me a lot of pain, as they were people I looked to. What healed the wound however, was God showed me … Continue reading God hears you
A few months ago, as I was trying and failing to get Nathanael to respond to “no”, God gave me a beautiful understanding of disciplining a child from His point of view. Discipline is about training, rather than punishment. I definitely have L plates on when it comes to training our son, but because of how God has disciplined me as my Father over 24 … Continue reading Thankful for a Father who disciplines
There have been many times since Nathanael was born, that Jon’s fathering of him has brought tears to my eyes. It wasn’t until the other day though, that I felt God show me why that was. I suddenly saw that it was God’s fathering through Jon, to Nathanael, that made me cry. In that moment I realised that the greatest gift I had been wanting … Continue reading Being Fathered by God
This morning, as I was putting on my son’s shoes to go out, his daddy came downstairs. As Jon walked around the door into the lounge, the look in Nathanael’s eyes was one of pure delight. It was the most beautiful thing to see. It made me think about my last blog, and Psalm 37, about ‘delighting in God’. Watching Nathanael with my husband teaches … Continue reading Delighting in Father
I can’t tell you how many times over the last twenty something years I have asked God the question, “Do you care about my heart?” In setting out to walk in obedience to Him, and follow where He leads, the terrain of my life has often not looked like my heart’s desires. In fact many times I have had to walk on paths of suffering … Continue reading Does God care about my heart?
Being with Jesus 